Yesterday I had been feeling overwhelmed and I needed someone to ‘witness’ my day. I needed someone to see that I wake up ten times in the night, that I am juggling and struggling to manage the two babies, that I am parenting almost every minute of the day, that I am exhausted beyond anything. Just that. Witness. No words needed. (I didn’t know who would want to listen to every minute of my day!) So I blogged about it. And it was therapeutic! I highly recommend it to tired parents out there.
Once I wrote about my day, I also understood that I really am occupied every minute of the day. That I really am not getting enough sleep. And more than the physical exhaustion, it is the emotional ups and downs, that are so a part of parenting, that are also using up my energy. So many heartbreaking as well as heartwarming situations in a day. So many emotions. And so it’s ok to feel tired and overwhelmed.
I also made a few changes to my day. I have actually found some time to work. It’s not ideal but starting work again has lifted my spirits a bit.
I reread my life goals. And they inspired me yet again. I know this phase is hard. But it won’t last forever. This too shall pass. Until then, I want to make the most of it.